The thing about survival is that it requires patience, a virtue which is missing in my grappling. When someone has me pinned, every fiber of my being is intent on escaping, which often leads to desperation, and then I open myself up to submission. Now I realize that as long as I can make myself unsubmittable, and be patient, an opportunity to escape may prevent itself, and it will probably work better than when I try to force one. Survival has always been my goal when I roll with my seniors, I just don't think I fully understood what it entailed.
My mindset has previously been more on competition, which doesn't offer you the luxury of time, so escapes must be quick, but now I want to slow things down. If I'm grappling with my seniors and they've pinned me, I only have a very small chance of getting out anyway, so I may as well just focus on surviving for as long as I can.
"I'm a survivor, I'm not gon' give up,
I'm not gon' stop, I'm gon' work harder." -Destiny's Child