When I am in groups of people, I can usually find comfort after I feel as though I have gotten to know them a little bit. One of the problems with martial arts training is that the group never stays the same, people are constantly coming and going. There are always new people to get to know and trust, which does not come easily for me. Training with ever-changing new students is one of the hardest things I have ever voluntarily done. Sometimes it's a fight just to get myself to go to class.
In the beginning of my Jiu-Jitsu training, it was very hard for me to get used to interacting so closely with others, it's definitely an intimate art. Now I find that I have no problem pulling complete strangers down on top of me to show them how to do a technique, or asking my seniors questions while drilling.
Then I think about that person who claimed I couldn't even train Jiu-Jitsu because of my shyness, and I know that every day I am able to fight through the fear, I win. Some days I still fail, but the good days far outnumber the bad, and that seems like a success to me.
"Something's wrong, you're not naive, you must be strong."-Kajagoogoo